reminiscing with pistachios

so today, instead of doing a mass of homework, ive been reminiscing with pistachios. you know, at this moment in my life, i really do believe that life was so much easier as a child. you had nothing to think or worry about. no stressful homework --no hard homework. i mean, look what im faced with today: a pile of homework which i have no idea on doing. im feeling a bit like a failure at the moment, because i feel like i cant do anything without help. i need help with my homework. last semester wasnt this hard, and i didnt really expect the second semester to be this difficult. i cant help but imagine what the next two years of my life will be. hell? i think so. if i cant get through my homework now, how will i go on to senior studies? university? its all a mystery to me which i am afraid to face. ive said it many times, but i dont like failure. i dont do failure. but of course, i am faced with life, so who knows what will happen to me. believe it or not, but i am stuck. i dont know what to do, what to think. ive like stopped doing everything and tried to evaluate here, but all i do is sit here and become confused again. how do i stop it? and how do i make myself understand at the same time.
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i guess we all have to grow up one day whether you like it or not. you cant be a child forever, and when you realise that, youll also realise that life was so much easier, simpler...and you certainly dont want to grow up --because thats when you are faced difficulties and questions which you may not know the answer to and find yourself at crossroads.